What could I possibly blog about with a title like this?
Does anyone else write letters to their future husband, pray for them or randomly send them love OR is it just me?!
After being single for over 3 years, there were times when I would get discouraged or have the feeling I would be alone forever.
As I was growing in my spirituality and learning to truly love who I am and be my authentic self, it was difficult to connect to the men around me and it seemed like the selection was getting smaller and smaller.
Sure, I dated several guys in the last 3 years but nothing that last more than a few weeks. As I look back, I realized two things.
- FILLING IN THE VOID: Instead of focusing on myself, I was going on dates to fill in the void of feeling “lonely”. I eventually decided to sit in that loneliness and realized I wasn’t alone; I had myself and God and of course all my loved one around me.
- I WAS WAITING: Sure I did date all these guys but like I said, nothing lasted more than a few weeks and in a way it was like I innately knew that these men were not going to be my HUSBAND and I wasn’t going to waste more time on them. In a strange way I was waiting for him.
So, in the past year something in me shifted. I began tapping into my spirituality and creating a relationship with God, I was loving myself and admiring my gifts and talents, I was confident and outspoken, I was living in bliss. My thoughts and mindset turned into happy and positive ones and I noticed so much love entering in my life. I also noticed that things I was manifesting were showing up as well.
Then one day out of the blue I was driving and I started thinking about my future husband and what he could be possibly doing. I turned the music down and I said “I hope where ever you are, that you are happy!” I hope he heard me. HA HA.
Anyway, a few days later I decided to write down a few things I would appreciate in a husband. Below are a few qualities that I jotted down:
- Be present; not focused on the past or the future but show up everyday as present as possible.
- Has integrity; honest with his word and commitments to himself and to those around him.
- Has a sense of humor; is a clown that can make me laugh and make those around him smile.
- He is confident when faced with challenges, thrives from it and enjoys learning from those experiences.
- Knows that he has a purpose in life.
- Is filled with love, light, and joy.
- He is vegan (for his health and to save all the animals)
- Loves traveling.
- Loves nature and sitting in silence.
- Enjoys hiking and going to the beach.
- Has a powerful presence but is gentle at the same time
- Loves giving hugs and holding hands
These are just some of the qualities I would love. In writing them down and sharing them, it’s like I am manifesting it to God and to the universe.
Honestly, the last couple of months I was sad and tired of being alone. I just wanted to cry because I saw all of my loved ones with a partner, getting engaged, married or having babies. I have gone through so much in my life the last 3 years and I wanted someone to share that with and someone to support me through it.
Oh but God knows exactly what He is doing in my life and he likes to remind me.
While I was reading “The Greatest Thing in the World” by Henry Drummond, a certain part stood out to me.
- Love is Patience. This is the normal attitude of Love; Love passive, Love waiting to begin; not in a hurry; calm; ready to do its work when the summons comes, but meantime wearing the ornament of a meek and quiet spirit. Love suffers long; beareth all things; believeth all things; hopeth all things. For Love understands, and therefore waits.
I believe that my love is out there and I am willing to wait and be calm until the day he walks into my world.
Deep down inside I knew that everything I was going through AND I am still going through is only preparing me. Could you imagine if I was in a relationship when I did not love myself, when I wasn’t confident? As I patiently wait for my husband, I will continue to share love and work on myself.
Now, you are patiently waiting to read the letter I wrote my future husband. I will not keep you waiting any longer. The letter is short but it’s from the heart.
Dear husband of mine,
I am writing this to you, without knowing who you are, where you are, and what you may be doing. All I know is that I love you with all of my heart, as crazy as that sounds. For a time, I was scared to find love and be in love, I have been “heartbroken” before and that caused me to hide from the world. For the last couple of years, I have been working on myself, to better who I am, to be present, to be joyful and happy, and to be light in this world.
We will meet when God and the universe intend us too. It will be perfect timing. All the time before was preparing us and making sure we were ready for one another. I have prayed and thought about you several times, I have cried wishing you were already with me. I have even spoken to you with words of love while I was driving. I am sending you lots of love wherever you were. I hope that you are smiling and that you are enjoying every single minute of your day and life.
Love is a magical thing. I can’t wait to share it with you, to hold your hand, hug you and kiss you, my dear.
Okay, there you go. I will probably write more letters to him but I wanted to share with you my heart and thoughts.
As I walk through life and I see my family and friends in relationships and marriages and even as I see other people with loved ones, it feels my heart with joy that one day I will be able to experience that. Thank you for sharing your love for one another.
For those that are also patiently waiting for their loved one, I pray for you that as you do wait that you are filled with joy and light. I hope that you love yourself so much, that the love that does enter your life only magnify’s it even more and you share that with those around you.
As always, I love all of you so very much.
With love, light, and gratitude.
It’s been quite a while since I’ve posted but I felt inspired to keep blogging about my life and my adventures.
I recently took a trip to Puerto Rico with my dear friend, Sharon. We were only there a few days (May 4th-8th) but the experience was unforgettable. We didn’t get to explore everything that we wanted to but I left satisfied, refreshed, blessed and very burnt…. haha.
Day 1, Sharon and I left early to go explore Cueva Ventana (Window Cave) but little did we know that on our way there we would take a wrong turn and this is what we would find…
This view is called Lagos Dos Bocas (Dos Bocas Lake). We didn’t get to do this but there is a boat ride on the lake that provides lunch!
Once we stopped admiring the view, we headed back on the highway to Cueva Ventana. When we arrived at 8 AM, we were a little disappointed to find out that they don’t open until 10 AM!!!! Truthfully, it was my fault, I should have done more research. But I did not let that ruin out trip. I started searching for places near by and this is what I found…
This was 30 minutes away from Cueva Ventana. This awesome place is called La Cueva del Indio and I highly recommend it. It’s not well known but I wanted to share with you all this hidden treasure. The views were completely different from every angle, it was breathtaking.
Two hours later we were back on the road to Cueva Ventana! The whole morning did not go as planned but I wouldn’t have it any other way.
We began our tour at noon and it took about 1.5 hours. You are provided with a helmet and a flashlight. (I suggest you bring hiking shoes as some of the areas are slippery.)
I do not recommend this tour if you fear the following:
- The dark
- Slippery rocks
- The unknown…
But if you are totally cool with it, then go for it! I highly enjoyed myself. There was a moment when the tour guide asked us to turn off our flashlights and at that moment I closed my eyes and a wave of gratitude came over me. But I heard some others squeal in fear..
To end Day 1, we had to explore some of Old San Juan! Below are pictures of the beautiful city!
Lastly, we went to dinner at The Locals on Calle Loiza. While we were there we ran into this cool wall. It’s basically a library, you can take a book as long as you replace it with another book!
And that folks was Day 1 in Puerto Rico. I fell in love with the island the moment I stepped off the plane! If you are ever in PR, please check out these places, you will not regret it!
I am sending you huge amounts of love from this side of the screen.
If you’d like to check out more photos about my trip follow my travel Instagram account @thewanderersbucketlist
Bucket List #3: Swim with Sharks
Let me guess, most of you think I am absolutely crazy and are wondering why I would risk my life. Before I dive into my experience with swimming with sharks, I am going to tell you a little bit about my friends.
- Why are sharks important? They keep populations of smaller fish in check. Without sharks, entire ecosystems are disrupted
- While many people consider sharks to be the world’s deadliest animal, you are more likely to be killed by hornets, wasps, bees, or dogs
- While many of us have learned to fear sharks, they are the ones who should fear us. Humans kill 73 million sharks annually
- Punching a shark in the nose or poking its eyes can help to fend it off during an attack. Most sharks don’t want to work hard for their food
- How do sharks date? Male sharks find mates by biting female sharks. Ouch. Cats and turtles also bite potential partners.
- Of the roughly 50 shark attacks reported each year, only 10% prove to be fatal. So while an attack is rare, dying from one is even rarer
- Of the 72 unprovoked shark attacks in 2013, the most were in Florida, where there were 23 unprovoked attacks.
As a child, I had a sweet spot for people that were bullied, judged, hated, etc. I befriended them because I didn’t want them to feel alone. I know sharks don’t care what we think about them but everyone seems to see them as these horrible, monstrous, dangerous creatures; I see them differently. The fact that people fear them so much made me want to befriend them even more. I tend to go against what everyone thinks and after seeing videos of scuba divers feeding and petting several types of sharks, I was hooked.
- While shark fin soup is a Chinese tradition, the primary downside to finning is that it causes the deaths of 73 million sharks every year [When I found out that sharks are hunted for their fins and are left to drown in the ocean, I was furious and my heart went out to them.]
I can’t recall when and why I decided that I wanted to swim with sharks but it’s been on my list for a couple of years now. It may have actually started when a couple of friends of mine invited me shark fishing near the Juno Beach area.
The first night I went out shark fishing, we caught a couple of blacktip sharks. I decided it was a good idea to try and sit on one and take a picture. Well my first attempt was a fail. The shark was a little feisty and I ended up tripping over it and scrapping my knee. Thankfully, I did not trip anywhere near its mouth. Even after this scary experience, that did not stop me. I waited until we caught a smaller, less angry shark to sit on. [For those wondering, all the sharks that were caught when I went shark fishing have been placed back into the ocean, alive.]
- Great whites are the most notorious man-eaters. But they do not like the taste of humans, often biting and releasing attack victims.
- As sensational as shark attack newspaper headlines are, the reality is that you are more likely to be bitten by another person than a shark.
A few months ago I posted a picture on Instagram of a great white and I mentioned that I’ve been wanting to swims with sharks. That day a friend from high school sent me a message asking if I was truly interested because she knew of a company that could make this happen. I responded immediately with a YES!
We planned a date and it was set. I bought a Go Pro so I could capture this experience.
The night before the big day, I could not sleep. I stayed up until 1 AM watching videos on YouTube of people shark diving.
When we got to the place, my literal words to my friend were, “Shit, this is really happening.”
We got on the boat and I had several mixed emotions. I thought I was crazy for paying to actually swim with sharks and essentially put my life in danger; I was anxious because I was going to cross off another thing off my list; I was so happy that this was finally happening that I almost wanted to cry tears of joy. Before I left the house, I wrote in my journal a few words to my close family and friends, just in case I didn’t make it back. [But I’m writing this, so that means I survived!]
- Want to avoid a shark attack? Don’t splash and don’t wear jewelry. Sharks are attracted to splashing and sharp color contrasts. [You want to make sure to stay calm and just enjoy the view when you’re shark diving.]
We finally arrived to the area where we would encounter the sharks. The bait was dropped down about 20 feet into the ocean and once the sharks starting showing up, we were able to hop in the water. There was a rope to hold on to while you just watched the sharks swim beneath you.
At one point there were about 10-12 Bull sharks beneath us. The closest a shark got to us was about 6 feet away.
- Tiger, great white, and bull sharks perpetrate most attacks on humans. They hunt human-sized prey and are capable of inflicting fatal bites [I guess the Bull sharks liked me and let me survive.]
Everyone’s first reaction when I tell them is, “You’re crazy. WHY?” and I, of course respond with a, “Why not?” haha.
When I got into the water, there wasn’t an ounce of fear in me. For me, swimming with these sharks was one of the best experiences in my life. The fact that I swam with one of the top most dangerous sharks and I survived, kind of gives me a high. Yes, they can absolutely be dangerous but if you give them a reason too.
- You may think of sharks as ravenous, man-eating sea terrorists, but only 20 of the 350+ shark species are known to attack humans
Not everyone is cut out to go on risky adventures. I’ve always had a free spirit and enjoyed doing things for the first time. Ever since my dad passed away back in January, I’ve noticed I’ve been doing more dangerous things; I think this is my own way of dealing with the loss. The more dangerous the risk, the better I feel. But it always leaves me wanting more.
Anyway, ever since last Sunday, I’ve been obsessed with sharks. I just want to go swim with them again. Naturally, I started adding more to the bucket list. I want to get scuba certified, I want to buy a boat, and I want to feed and pet sharks.
For those interested in shark diving, my friends and I went through a company called Florida Shark Diving located in Jupiter. They were great and I felt safe throughout the whole experience.
If you are on Instagram, check out these three accounts. @sharkaddicts @sharkaddicts2 @sharkaddicts3. These guys interact with sharks and their purpose is to show the world that sharks should not be feared. They are pretty awesome.
Also, I’m in love with my new long sleeve from the Local Brand. @thelocalbrand
Thanks for reading my blog and for all the feedback I have received.
I hope that this inspires to do something crazy and out of the ordinary. I want you all to know that my life is “cool” only because I choose to live it that way. I make sure that I make time to do things I truly want to do.
I read something today that puts things into perspective and I hope it helps you too.
“That is why humans resist life. To be alive is the biggest fear humans have. Death is not the biggest fear we have; our biggest fear is taking the risk to be alive — the risk to be alive and express what we really are. Just being ourselves is the biggest fear of humans.” ― Miguel Ruiz, The Four Agreements: A Practical Guide to Personal Freedom
Do not fear life, live it every day! I am sending you all love and happiness your way.