Does anyone else write letters to their future husband, pray for them or randomly send them love OR is it just me?!
After being single for over 3 years, there were times when I would get discouraged or have the feeling I would be alone forever.
As I was growing in my spirituality and learning to truly love who I am and be my authentic self, it was difficult to connect to the men around me and it seemed like the selection was getting smaller and smaller.
Sure, I dated several guys in the last 3 years but nothing that last more than a few weeks. As I look back, I realized two things.
- FILLING IN THE VOID: Instead of focusing on myself, I was going on dates to fill in the void of feeling “lonely”. I eventually decided to sit in that loneliness and realized I wasn’t alone; I had myself and God and of course all my loved one around me.
- I WAS WAITING: Sure I did date all these guys but like I said, nothing lasted more than a few weeks and in a way it was like I innately knew that these men were not going to be my HUSBAND and I wasn’t going to waste more time on them. In a strange way I was waiting for him.
So, in the past year something in me shifted. I began tapping into my spirituality and creating a relationship with God, I was loving myself and admiring my gifts and talents, I was confident and outspoken, I was living in bliss. My thoughts and mindset turned into happy and positive ones and I noticed so much love entering in my life. I also noticed that things I was manifesting were showing up as well.
Then one day out of the blue I was driving and I started thinking about my future husband and what he could be possibly doing. I turned the music down and I said “I hope where ever you are, that you are happy!” I hope he heard me. HA HA.
Anyway, a few days later I decided to write down a few things I would appreciate in a husband. Below are a few qualities that I jotted down:
- Be present; not focused on the past or the future but show up everyday as present as possible.
- Has integrity; honest with his word and commitments to himself and to those around him.
- Has a sense of humor; is a clown that can make me laugh and make those around him smile.
- He is confident when faced with challenges, thrives from it and enjoys learning from those experiences.
- Knows that he has a purpose in life.
- Is filled with love, light, and joy.
- He is vegan (for his health and to save all the animals)
- Loves traveling.
- Loves nature and sitting in silence.
- Enjoys hiking and going to the beach.
- Has a powerful presence but is gentle at the same time
- Loves giving hugs and holding hands
These are just some of the qualities I would love. In writing them down and sharing them, it’s like I am manifesting it to God and to the universe.
Honestly, the last couple of months I was sad and tired of being alone. I just wanted to cry because I saw all of my loved ones with a partner, getting engaged, married or having babies. I have gone through so much in my life the last 3 years and I wanted someone to share that with and someone to support me through it.
Oh but God knows exactly what He is doing in my life and he likes to remind me.
While I was reading “The Greatest Thing in the World” by Henry Drummond, a certain part stood out to me.
- Love is Patience. This is the normal attitude of Love; Love passive, Love waiting to begin; not in a hurry; calm; ready to do its work when the summons comes, but meantime wearing the ornament of a meek and quiet spirit. Love suffers long; beareth all things; believeth all things; hopeth all things. For Love understands, and therefore waits.
I believe that my love is out there and I am willing to wait and be calm until the day he walks into my world.
Deep down inside I knew that everything I was going through AND I am still going through is only preparing me. Could you imagine if I was in a relationship when I did not love myself, when I wasn’t confident? As I patiently wait for my husband, I will continue to share love and work on myself.
Now, you are patiently waiting to read the letter I wrote my future husband. I will not keep you waiting any longer. The letter is short but it’s from the heart.
Dear husband of mine,
I am writing this to you, without knowing who you are, where you are, and what you may be doing. All I know is that I love you with all of my heart, as crazy as that sounds. For a time, I was scared to find love and be in love, I have been “heartbroken” before and that caused me to hide from the world. For the last couple of years, I have been working on myself, to better who I am, to be present, to be joyful and happy, and to be light in this world.
We will meet when God and the universe intend us too. It will be perfect timing. All the time before was preparing us and making sure we were ready for one another. I have prayed and thought about you several times, I have cried wishing you were already with me. I have even spoken to you with words of love while I was driving. I am sending you lots of love wherever you were. I hope that you are smiling and that you are enjoying every single minute of your day and life.
Love is a magical thing. I can’t wait to share it with you, to hold your hand, hug you and kiss you, my dear.
Okay, there you go. I will probably write more letters to him but I wanted to share with you my heart and thoughts.
As I walk through life and I see my family and friends in relationships and marriages and even as I see other people with loved ones, it feels my heart with joy that one day I will be able to experience that. Thank you for sharing your love for one another.
For those that are also patiently waiting for their loved one, I pray for you that as you do wait that you are filled with joy and light. I hope that you love yourself so much, that the love that does enter your life only magnify’s it even more and you share that with those around you.
As always, I love all of you so very much.
With love, light, and gratitude.